Day by day

I don't know how many times a day I have to ask what day it is, and today was no exception. When they told me that they are seriously hoping to close Emma's abdomen in surgery on Wednesday it took a while for me to grasp that it is already Monday!! Needless to say I was very pleased and yet trying to keep my hope in check!!

Along the same lines as my last post, it occurs to me how much my emotions resemble a rollercoaster ride. One minute I am up, incredibly hopeful about Emma's progress and complete healing with no lasting affects; the next minute fearing the worst prognosis and wondering of the impact greater health concerns will have on all our lives.

Fear is always in the car behind ours, constantly trying to chase our hopes away. However, just as a rollercoaster, neither Scott or I is in the driving seat (or control booth!) ~ thankfully! As you know we have asked Jesus to fill that role, of the drive and direction for our lives, and it has never applied more than now.

He alone knows where we are heading and what we will encounter along the way, and that is a great comfort.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
(Psalm 23:4)

Why?

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)

We know, as most parents do, that what is "good" for us is often not what we WANT! And so we trust God to do what is good for ALL who love him, through our situation, and accept that it may be contrary to our desire. Yet we already know, there is still joy and love found in the toughest of situations, where God is the guide and so we are able to give him the position at the controls of our lives.